a not so majestic return to reality

So when I started this blog last summer, I intended to write down everything about my senior year of college.  Obviously, that has not happened. Papers, friends, games, and parties all got in the way of this blog  this past year.  Even though I didn’t necessarily write it all down, I got to enjoy some of the best times of my life with some of the people I love most in this world.  I hit my stride academically.

And then I graduated.

graduation balloons

and yes...they really did release balloons

Right now I’m sort of in a state of flux.  Not much about me has changed: I still love reading, I still love the Mets no matter how much they disappoint me, and I still love honing my Facebook stalking skills. At the same time, once I graduated, I lost the only thing I was ever really good at and ever really loved doing: school.  Post grad life (all three weeks of my life) have been very confusing for me. So far I have been rejected for no less than 4 jobs (after spending precious time and gas money to get myself to interviews and the like), mostly because of my lack of self-confidence on the phone.   I know I shouldn’t take all this personally–but I just get so excited about these potential jobs (at agencies that actually do GOOD for other human beings) that I can’t help but be deeply disappointed. Especially when the employer can’t even be bothered to send me a spell-checked rejection email.

I do know that I’m lucky enough to have a job. Well, at least until December. I’m back at my summer internship from last summer, with a 2 dollar raise (yeah, you’re jealous). My bosses said I am welcome to stay during the Medicare annual enrollment period, which I will probably end up having to do.  I love the people I work with, and I get to actually do a lot of fulfilling, useful work. I just can’t get the student loans and the need to sort of move on with my life and prove that everything that I accomplished during college was worth it.  Sometimes I almost wish that I was (f)unemployed.

So I’m not going to promise that I’ll be posting every day…but I am going to make the effort to actually keep up with this blog this time.  My WordPress theme is too pretty to go to waste.

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